Surprise, Surprise!

Jared and I got the surprise of our life on May 22, 2009. That is when I peed on a stick and it came up positive. What?!?! It was as if that stick was on fire the way I screamed and dropped it. We really were not expecting this. In hindsight the first thing I thought of was the Sunday before at Logan's dedication, Pastor Gary said something that stuck, "we think that we plan pregnancies but really God plans pregnancies." At the time I thought he was talking of Logan, but now I realize that dedication was a prophetic message. God was reiterating the fact that I am not in control, even when I think I am. So, this baby we believe is a gift from God, just like our other two. And, after we got over the initial shock of our present situation and potential financial suicide we are about to commit, we realize that this truly is a unique opportunity to be trusted with another one of God's blessings. Currently I am just over 7 weeks pregnant and it is June 9, 2009. Much too early to shout our news from the roof tops. Though there are days its so overwhelming I want to scream it to the checker in line at Safeway. We have told our parents and siblings and sworn them to secrecy at least until I can see the Dr. to confirm our little bean is growing properly. After the birth of Logan Jared bought me a lima bean shaped sterling silver necklace as a symbol of my little bean that was once in my belly. That necklace has even more significance to me today. I was online looking for photos of what our bean looks like at this stage in the game and here is what I found.

AMAZING, ISN'T IT??? It's crazy how quickly they grow from a cluster of cells into the baby they will be. Oh, of course I am believing that God has a baby girl in store for us... (You can stop laughing now.) The odds are against us I know. But who can blame me for wishing?! So, with that said, at this point we are not planning on finding out the sex until he or she is born. I'm looking forward to the surprise, I never thought I'd have the opportunity to experience that and its exciting to imagine the moment we truly meet our little one. *Of course I must give you the disclaimer that I am allowed to change my mind on this at any moment throughout my pregnancy*
I plan to give updates with photos of our growing baby and eventually be able to publish this post after we are safely through our first trimester.

Baby's first photo at 10weeks!

I had my first doctor appointment on June 30, 2009 and got to see the baby . Everything looked great, strong heartbeat (seen not heard at this point) and the bone structure looked normal. We have told more family and friends and everyone has been very supportive and happy for us. Hunter is excited about a new sibling, but every once in a while will say to me, "Mom, can you believe we're going to have another baby?!" Believe it, kid!

July 19, 2009

Well, we are through the first trimester! Our little shrimp isn't so shrimpy anymore. It's body is starting to straighten out, it's head is still disproportionately big, but adorable! I have been feeling better as of late, the extreme exhaustion I felt early on is slowly lifting. My belly is starting to pooch out a bit more with every day. Soon enough this "secret" will be obvious to everyone. ;o) Here are some photos of what the baby looks like today.

July 29, 2009

Yesterday was my 14 week appointment, Hunter came with me and we were able to actually hear the heartbeat. Baby was moving & kicking quite a bit so she had a hard time following her around. It was fun for Hunter, he loved listening to Logan's heartbeat. We also set up the appointment for our ultrasound. Wow, only 6 more weeks until we can see our little bean! Unbelievable how quickly things seem to be progressing. That will be the moment of truth- to peek or not to peek at whether our bean is a he or a she... I'm still thinking it would be awesome to find out at the delivery! *deep breath* I think I can do it. I figure, if it is a boy, I have everything we could ever need... and deep down I keep thinking it will be a boy. BUT, if it is a girl, what a joyous celebration in that birthing room. (I have to say, we will celebrate regardless!) And there will be a few pink outfits purchased just in case...

Only a few more days left until we can announce our news to the world! We are waiting until this weekend because Jared wants to attend one of his college roommate's wedding and break the news to his friends in person. =) Wish I could be there to see the look on their faces but me and the boys will be staying home.

Like an angel in a cloud.

** Here's something for you, that I just realized... the picture of us as a family (on top of my blog) at Hunter's preschool graduation- that was the last picture taken of us as a family when we had NO idea that we essentially were a family of FIVE!! The following night we found out.**